Matrik? or uniten?

i got d matrik!! should i b happy? aiks..

2day i woke up quite early.. knw y? coz too panic wif d matrik list.. once i woke up thn direct open d pc n on9.. lian send me d link 2 check d list.. i felt so panic... hands were so cold n nearly shivering.. once i entered my ic num, i took in a deep breath n pressed entre. god! i saw d word Tahniah! my mind turned into blank, n finally get it back, n jz told wif a sigh.. no excited feeling! thn later i told my frd.. duno i should b happy or down.. they all sd sure mz b happy! it's not eZ.. n i'm vr lucky! en.. thn i felt beter.. as every1 was congrating me n some 1 is so envy that i can get it.. erm.. my brain told me that i should b happy.. en.. mayb i should b like that.. so i jz kept telling myself i'm happy..

thn later, i offline n thn go n took bath all that.. i thk it over n over.. i missed my way.. turned 2 b vr blur.. even whn i was brushing my teeth, my dad asked me that y i looked so sad.. perhaps my face told every1 that i'm not happy that i get it.. n even my heart.. it tells me that it is not happy actually.. it's wondering!! duno should go 4 foundation in uniten or matrik.. if i go 2 matrik, i can save a lot! n no nd 2 take loan.. bt thn according 2 others, its quality is bad.. d students that come out from matrik they find it vr difficult 2 cope wif d sylabii of d 1st yr in their degree.. obviously.. their standards r lower much if compared 2 others.. sigh.. does it mean that i should go 2 uniten is beter? bt i nd 2 pay more.. n even take d ptptn loan.. bt if uniten.. i can c my future way quite clear.. i knw wat i'm going 2 do.. bt thn.. aiks..

So hinn.. i duno wat i do is jz can b considered as a corect decision.. n no 1 can tel me that.. feel so bad.. aiks.. getting lost.. -.-'