Thursday, October 13, 2011

One of the Thursday Nights

Io sto male.

I used to be moody these days. Dont try to ask me why, i myself hunger for the answer.

I got one inside my head, girl sick? I hope this is the correct answer, i know i will get cured after some time, at least.

Recently, i have learnt that people do have dreams. However, reality and dreams do not meet somehow. Erm, try to make this matter looks easier, change another word instead of dream, lets use the word thought. You might have the idea to do your work, but by the time you do it, the result comes out later doesn't look like what you have expected. It just can, just can differ so much sometimes. Doubt about it how? and why is it so? Do you get the answer?

The typical ones i guess must be:"you dont have the heart when u doing it." I ban this, i did put heart. "Okay, you are just rushing, dont you ever heard slowly and steady?" Yes, i heard, but no, i dont. I had spared so much time on it. "You dont know the correct way, you dont have nice skill." Okay, you might be right. But this is sad.

Did i mention i bought a cactus from Cameron last few weeks? It looked so strong and charm, yes, dont doubt it, it was CHARM. But look at it now, it is dry, half-withered and dull. Ohh! It looks like me! I mean, my feeling! Tutto.

There is a book sale in Serdang. I wish i could go there. It is just too excited to see so many books and they are all selling at cheap prise. But it is too far. Lets forget it. I was not a bookworm or everyday-holding-book kind of people, but i like stories, when they are expressing in words they will look so beautiful and can be more attractive then watching movies sometimes. You know, when you imagine, things will get prettier and more wonderful then how they are when you really can see them.

Picture says thousands words? Words can draw more amazing pictures, sometimes. =)

Tuesday, September 27, 2011

no tiltle

Okay, when you can see there is update in my blog, no other reasons, yes! IT IS BORING! *roar*

What else can you do when you have *NOTHING to do at all? Besides keep scrolling up and down on your facebook page, anything else meaningful you can do? Suggest me please!

Well, see my asterisk? my "nothing" here doesn't really mean it. In fact, i have books to read, tutorial questions to complete, notes to study. But those do not count as "something" to do. Because i DO NOT like them. Blow me? I was trying not to use "hate" this word by the way.

I am taking Italiano this semester. It was just an accident, but it is now however a fact. Enjoyed it for the first few classes, start feel a little bit lost. What i can say is, language is wonderful. Italiano has too many rules and tenses to follow. Will be harder when going deeper. Bless me.

Had moved to smaller room. A very small room indeed. No more sleeping on the bed-on-the-floor. Can see greenery grass when looking outside from the window. This is how i find this room lovely. =)

When you get to know someone more thoroughly, you will find yourself not so like about him/her. Is this a fact or just my prejudice?

If an acquaintance telling you he scores 100 in his test, will you clap your hand over your mouth and shout:"wow!brilliant!" or whisper to yourself:"走开啦,又关我事!" the first one or the latter? Or both at the same time?

Sunday, September 18, 2011

Do you ever feel like giving up?

Do you ever feel this world is not belong to you?

Sorry, i dont mean to copy the idea from Katy Perry, but this just came across my mind very suddenly.

Why is it like this?

I dont know.

Guessing I have been driven mad.


Wednesday, July 27, 2011

拾到宝

今天真是拾到宝了!

之前就很想买Sophie Kinsella的书,可是它的价钱都常常站得很硬,没折扣。可是,竟然!今天当我们走过carrefour书摊打算偷几本书回去慢慢看时,也是我手多多拿起了那本大版本的Twenties Girl,正在赞叹它的价钱是RM79.90时,这个时候,旁边的工作人员叫我把这本书买下了吧,现在只售10令吉!我当场傻眼!完全怀疑是他搞错!怎么可能!结果他叫我去scan不就知道了。我二话不说,scan了才发现原来他没骗,真的是RM10!他还说其他的也是,很多都折扣了,原本三,四十的书都只卖五块,十块。我突然觉得人生亮了!整个就很兴奋!结果选了很多本,左挑右挑,才顿时发现,我没钱。我今天只带了十多块出门。好在有阿蕙,可是我们加起来的钱也不够我买所有我想要的书,唯有割爱。只好明天带够钱再去买。可是,今天也都买了不少。我买了四本。两本是Sophie Kinsella的,另外两本是Stephenie Meyer和Cecelia Ahern的。今天太兴奋了!哈哈!在火车上不怕闷死我了!woohoo~ XD hotels

今天Carrefour突然间搞了个Party,据说是为了庆祝bulan puasa的什么的。有很多免费吃的。我是很想吃他的satay,可是,我抢不过别人。结果也没得吃。我发现,马来makcik真实多,好人多了,如果和华人aunty相较之下的话。是马来makcik一直叫我们吃,说虽然庆祝马来人的节日,可是大家都是一样的,应该不分你我,一起庆祝,一起吃。反而是华人aunty,这里说他们的食物不怎么样,就像他们的人一样。什么东西!也就算了,之后我看到他都抢着排着队,拿了很多吃的。huh...aunty,你如果是酱嫌东嫌西,就不要吃咯,又没人逼你。可是不管他们庆祝什么,我也都当作是在为我们办欢送会!因为明天将是我们工作的最后一天!哈哈!

Monday, July 25, 2011

习惯了

我已经习惯一天站十个钟了。

我已经习惯闷到发慌也只能发呆的工作了。

我也已经习惯省吃俭用,餐餐都斤斤计较的生活了。

可是这份工作也只剩下三天就要结束了。

怎么说?

虽然有点废,一整天也只有站的份。可是,有时候很爱和顾客们讲话。他们总可以告诉我们不知道的事。

有很有用的:譬如怎样把蛋糕弄得薄点,吃起来才不会腻。

也有健康贴士:锅不要买铝的,会致癌。

有实用的:aluminum foil不要贪心一次买太多。收太久会变黄。

等等……等等……

过多几天就可以回家了!很兴奋!可以餐餐都吃饱饱了!

有好有坏。

好:超满足的;坏:肥死!

哈!我不介意!因为回kl就会瘦了!

这是妈咪的theory:在家要吃就吃,不用理他酱多!

我非常同意!哈哈!

Sunday, July 24, 2011

是幸福的

我不喜欢讲话。

有时候。

真的只是有时候。

今天吃饭时,看到很多aunty在外面边吃饭边讲话,烦死了。就躲到locker那里吃,费事他们问你话又不应,好像很串酱。

谁知道,进到去里面,还是有个makcik问长问短的。我都只答了几句,就他问什么,我只答那什么。搞到最后他问我是不是嫌弃他,不爱跟他老人家说话。晕。我只想吃饭,不想应酬,总可以吧?也不是说平常和他们说话是应酬,只是当我想安静下来时,那就准许我不说话吧。

今天,我看到个行动不是很方便,肢体不是很协调的小妹妹。应该有中学了吧。他妈妈和哥哥就走在他前面。看得出来,妈妈买东西商量的对象,不是她。她只有在后尾尾随着他们的份。走过我旁边时,从他身上散发出来一股味道,好像很多天没把自己身体洗干净的感觉。我顿时很悲,那时候真的有种想哭出来的感觉。

原来人,只要四肢健全,头脑没残缺,就已经是被眷顾的那群了。

幸福的我们,平常还在埋怨些什么?

Thursday, July 21, 2011

一个星期了

终于!

今天无惊无险,又过了一天。^^

也不是完全顺遂,今天一早就被guard阻止我穿外套进去,很冷啊!不然要怎样。结果我还是不理他,他叫着我,我还是掉头走掉了。我知道不应该,可是也废事理他了。

唉!我也知道我很串。之后也觉得不好意思下的咯。

今天有个aunty,也是在carrefour做工的,给我们上了一课。可是,我非常不同意他讲的东西,令到我觉得人怎么可以酱想,也未免太灰了吧!她说,人不需要活太长,这点我没有反对,只要精彩就好。可是接下来,她就说做人到了他这种年纪,也该结束了。没有目的,没有憧憬,天天在唉声叹气,怕这个,厌恶那个,连富贵山庄他都买定了。从一开始的交谈,她就在抱怨,首先是食物,接下来她家里的老人,她两个弟弟,弟弟的家人,做工的同事,能数出来的她都数了。我那时候真的很想把我的想法告诉他,可是也就算了,她应该也听不进去吧。

Aunty,有必要把自己逼到墙角吗?退几步看看,你会看到更多吧。没有人处处都能顺你意的吧,每个人都有自己的想法啊,你觉得不对,看不顺眼的事,别人可能就觉得没有问题啊,你又何必耿耿于怀?觉得好像这个世界所有人都是错的?虽然说做工的人生活都是每天都在重复同样的事情,都是千篇一律。是没有错很闷,可是我觉得你怎样想很重要。如果你是知足,觉得无惊无险又过一天就是好事,那你就不会这么悲了。你会觉得你是幸福的。莫非你要天天风吹雨打,雷电交加,那种生活才是你想要的?当然不可能。那时候你又会觉得你怎么那么命苦,天怎么都不给你安稳日子过。如果你是不知足的人,怎么样的生活才是会让你满意,没有怨言的?是nil.因为幸不幸福,取决于你怎么想。你往好的方面向,你就是在过着好日子;反之,你永远都不会觉得自己是幸福的。总觉得全世界都在亏欠着你,这种生活是你想要的吗?这样会很累。

或许,你可能会觉得我年纪还小,懂什么,说的容易,这个世界长怎样我都还没看清楚,说的这些话也都是自以为是。可能是吧。可能我现在说的真的都是废话,都是自以为是,可是我真的都这样想。我希望我到了她那种年纪我还是现在的我,总是简单。是难免会被社会洗礼,可是希望我不会忘记现在还没变质的我。

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