La la la~
Here am I, updating my blog, again in this study week.
YES!! I A-M B-O-R-I-N-G!!!
Nothing much to tell actually.
Tuesday, July 5, 2016
I think it is time to update my blog.
Today is the second day of 2010, meaning that my age now going start from the number '2'. It sounds pathetic. http://pdseafronthotel.com/
In the previous year, i had done a lot of things which i never try it before. The biggest change from 2008 was i am now in UM, continue my next station of my life journey. Sometimes i just wonder, there are how many stations all together we are going to challenge, but who knows the answer? Maybe that would be the challenging part when we dont know what we are going to do next.
There is once that i told my friend i would be glad that if i am doing
Today is the second day of 2010, meaning that my age now going start from the number '2'. It sounds pathetic. http://pdseafronthotel.com/
In the previous year, i had done a lot of things which i never try it before. The biggest change from 2008 was i am now in UM, continue my next station of my life journey. Sometimes i just wonder, there are how many stations all together we are going to challenge, but who knows the answer? Maybe that would be the challenging part when we dont know what we are going to do next.
There is once that i told my friend i would be glad that if i am doing
Monday, April 29, 2013
Sunday, December 16, 2012
Wednesday, May 23, 2012
Tuesday, May 22, 2012
应该学会的事
有多少事情，你在为别人做是义无反顾，而当你需要帮忙时，却看到很多你不明白的事情？
有时候真的很不明白，太难理解了。世界上没有理所当然的事情，这个道理早就应该看清了的不是吗？应该是我蠢。看到对别人不公平的事，这么生气是做什么？为别人打抱不平是做什么？替别人争取是做什么？你确定如果情况倒过来，别人也会是帮着你的那个吗？
人都是先图自己方便，把自己的事都搞定了，再看看有没有空，之余，还要再看看有没有心情，心情好，就帮咯。心情不好，谁会理你？为你的事情烦恼？傻咩？
我在怀疑自己是不是傻的那个。
人都是自私，这个是再事实不过的事实了。
醒来吧。这个世界就是这样现实的。
学学少说话，看到当看不到，既然事不关己，理这么多不觉得自己很无聊吗？还不如省着点力气吧。
Friday, May 18, 2012
Friday, May 4, 2012
遗憾
你有遗憾吗？一个永远都改变不了的遗憾？
我有。
遗憾这种事情，没想没事。想到了就会还蛮emo的。
其实遗憾，会让我们一直耿耿于怀的，是它真的那么美丽？还是只是我们把它想得那么美丽？
我宁愿相信是后者，至少会好过些。
既然没办法回到过去是事实，找尽借口把它丑陋化，也何尝不是好事。
Friday, March 23, 2012
小时候
突然间想起以前小时候。
在家里是最小的，爸爸妈妈都还很年轻，哥哥姐姐都还住在家里，他们都还在读书的时候。
不知道为什么，有种很想哭的感觉。
我想念，很想念！
以前妈咪很好笑，只要一下大雨，我们就高兴了。因为咪会让我们在屋外玩水淋雨。一下雨，咪就会喊我们下来，叫我们快快玩，不然雨停了就没得淋雨了。很奇怪吧？别人家的妈妈都是孩子偷偷跑去玩雨水，回家还得挨打挨骂，可是我的妈咪确是号召我们去玩的那个。哈哈！
还有，咪很喜欢让我们冲玩凉后，帮我们梳头发。可是，她梳得真得很丑！都是往上梳的。不论男女。现在看回以前的照片我们都是这个发型！丑死了！
记得以前很爱和哥哥玩guli，可是都是我输的。印象中很爱和他乱跑外面。哦！他很喜欢拿塑胶全乱射人，拉人家的头发，吓人，半夜睡不着就吵醒其他人，总之，他很喜欢看到人家生气，哭了，他就高兴了！可是这些可怜被捉弄的对象都是姐姐！我都是看着笑的那个。哈哈！哥哥真得很疼我，记得有一次被motor撞了，全家人他是第一个哭了，明明那时候都还很小，可是我很记得，他还说会替我打那个人。每次想起来都觉得很好笑！
在家里应该最怕的是姐姐。因为她很凶。她最常骂我了。可是从小她应该算是我偶像吧。觉得他什么都好像很厉害酱。人又长得美，可是明明她小时候长得不好看，可是还是那么喜欢看着她。看着她画画，写字，做功课，可是，每一次都会被他骂！记得常常会跟她讨价还价，说只看完她写完那行字，或只画完那朵花之类的，很蠢！哈哈
基本上因为年龄差距太大了，大多数的时间都是自己一个人在玩。玩买卖游戏，是横放着badminton拍，上面放散了的算盘珠子，当是在烤satay。卖的是自己，买的也是自己。冲凉很爱冲很久，因为在里面拿了很多塑胶杯子盘子，在玩冲水卖水生意。不同shampoo就是不同口味。哈哈
爸爸呢，最讨人厌的就是其着那个很难看的大motor！每次补完习，都会觉得丢脸一次。因为那辆motor还没到声音就到了，超大声的！而且它很大！骑上去就觉得很丢脸！每次要到时都会叫爸停远点，费事给人家看到。很蠢吧？如果是现在会觉得它很yeng咯！可是还是不会骑！哈！
那些都是很小时候的事。
可以回去吗？一下下都好。
回去了，我会跟妈咪讲：咪，我不爱梳那个头！可是真的很爱下雨天！
我会跟daddy讲：dy,你的motor很yeng!可是坐在上面真的很丑!
会跟哥哥讲：我很喜欢像现在酱跟你闹着玩，跟你联手欺负姐姐！
跟姐姐讲：给我看多两眼会死咩！你画到很美嘛！
现在都长大了，很多东西都变的不一样了。
也不是说变得不好，可是就感觉小时候真好。
那么天真，那么简单。
Tuesday, March 20, 2012
空欢喜
原来做错了assignment。在犹豫着要不要修改的同时，阿蕙突然点醒了我，想那么多，倒不如把那些时间改正了它吧。阿潘也说，十分是会死人的，很有道理，所以下定决心，改就改了。心想又花我两天时间定了，上来房间，实在太谢谢um的line了，load一个page都load死我了。可是，也不知道哪来的动力，决定一个人就去fac做功课了。我又想开始废了，怎么觉得自己越来越独立了？照平常逻辑走，我应该会是心存侥幸，一定是天意，不用改了！可是当时就是想把它弄好，想都没想就去做了。去到了fac，我还自己一个人去见了cco，再问他我到底是不是真的错了，结果，我还真的必须重做。做着做着，再double spacing一下，看上去好像就快完成了，还不错有满足感一下。哈哈
最近稍稍觉得很多东西都在改变着，慢慢地，不知不觉地。也说不上是好是坏，也说不上确实是什么事，就感觉。有小奇怪。
Sunday, March 18, 2012
又一天
今天终于把cco的assignment完成了。自己是觉得有点不可思议，哈哈！
刚刚听到了一些小故事，有点被吓到。只能说家家有本难念的经吧？
哦！最近发现到身边很多很久不见的朋友都变瘦了。自己想想也该控制一下食欲了，在酱下去也不是办法。
捐过血吗？我没有。记得以前，到了十八岁后想做的事情之一是捐血。很有意义吧？可是不知道什么时候开始听说捐了血后会变肥。想象得到吗？很恐怖！很多人都不相信，说是没根据的。可是是有这样的案例发生过，恰巧吗?可是我还是怕。结果就没捐了。其实捐血真的很有意义。等到哪天看开了，会尝试捐捐血。
今天大概也没什么特别事情发生了。哦！今天宿舍open floor，我们逃走了！结果在图书馆待了半天，也好，不然在房间也都是上网+睡觉+看戏+读故事书。完全颓废。
Putrajaya有座热气球活动。从以前就一直想去。可是每一年都好像有阻碍，都没去到。不知道毕业前会不会去成呢？唉，也只剩下一年罢了。
时间，真的飞着酱过！
Saturday, March 17, 2012
休闲天
今天，是完全闷的一天，不是没事做，只是不想做。
因为闷，所以看回以前写的post，发现到原来自己还蛮怀念之前在carrefour做工的时候。哈哈。原来那时候常常都有写写当天发生过的事情。原来日记写了一阵子看回去是这种感觉，有点蠢，可是会怀念。
今天一整天都无所事事，过得很悠哉，还不错喜欢这个样子生活。别人听了定会觉得我怎么那么得空，coursemates听了也会奇怪吧，明明就一大堆东西没做，可是是我问题吗？我不爱今日事今日毕这个好习惯，因为这样会把我的每一天都弄到很忙，我不喜欢。我宁愿选择在一天内忙死我都甘愿，就不想天天都有东西烦着我，那样会更折腾我。这个概念不是人人都同意，我理解。哈哈
刚刚和雪妮突然间聊到，才发现自己什么时候开始变了。就想法改变了。也不知道是好是坏。也讨论到一些事情，原来人，要当上谈得上话来的朋友，真的channel要非常一样。要不然怎么努力也都还是徒劳。不是吗？至少手表和水罐是这样。
下个学期开始就要搬了，其实刚开始时没什么感觉。搬不就搬咯，可是刚才很休闲的躺着读小说时，想到如果搬去ut了，很多现在的生活习惯也必须改改了，虽然说她们我都认识，可是一起住生活习惯那些东西还是得互相适应。而且煮饭洗厕所，在宿舍都有makcik帮我们做，每天也不用懊恼今天想吃什么，想想宿舍生活真不错。可是没办法，即将搬出去已经是事实了。很多东西都会不一样吧？有小不安~不理了，学四阿哥：既来之则安之。
其实说起来在宿舍真的没认识很多朋友，至少是越来越少。刚刚进来时有梅芬他们，他们毕业之后也都没去认识新junior，真的不是故意很串，只是很懒。重新认识一个人真的有小累，所以也就费事了。可是认识下来的真得有点不舍，还好说妮有跟我一起搬，不然会更不舍。毕竟相处了三年，说长吗？它不，可它也不短。都相处得有点像家人了，不再天天见了真的会很不习惯。
最近很爱听by2的不是故意。哦！他们变美了！哈哈
Friday, March 16, 2012
梦
有一阵子没做梦了，昨晚就让我发了一个梦，可是不是美丽的。
梦里的我，没人懂。
其实让人误会了，需要解释吗？
“不需要解释，因为不懂你的人不会相信；懂你的人不需要。”
听过吧？
虽然讲是酱讲没错，可是被人误会的感觉真得很无辜。
明明错的不是你，矛头却指向你，想象得到那种无力吗？
现实生活也发生过，可是我好像都选择不解释。
尤其是越在乎的事，越在乎的人，越不想解释。
不为什么，因为被误会的当下已经受了伤。
无力解释；无从解释。
觉得他应该懂我的，为什么他不？
想到这里就什么话都不想说了。
不是吗？
Thursday, December 29, 2011
过去
在适当的时候，作适当的事，往往都不是我的作风。我也不想，可是事后才来后悔，这种事情常常发生在我身上。
不知道为什么，想回了很多以前的事情。虽然过了有一段时间，可是还是好像刚刚才发生的事。不能说历历在目，可是还隐约记得。
时间真的很奇妙，它真的是至上的良药。人家说，快乐的人都是善忘的，真的。
最近发现到自己对很多事情都变得无所谓了。之前觉得很重要的事现在看回去，也不过是件小事一庄。没什么值得计较或是介意的。
看清， 看淡，看化了吧。
我觉得人可以分成好多种，不只是那十二星座的十二种个性，而是千千万万，很多很多种。有时候，你以为你已经了解了一个人，其实并不是的。你也还会常常不解为什么他会做出某种举动，会吓到你的。以前应该会介意一阵子，可是现在不会了。因为你知道这不是你可以控制的，也不会因为你觉得有所谓而会有什么改变。所以不需要介意。这样想比较轻松吧。
怎么讲？我喜欢现在的自己。不是自恋，也不需要被认同，我觉得现在所想所作的都是这个当下最对的事，当然不包括考试不读书，一直出去浪费时间这件事，之外的都处理得不错恰当。
可是，有一点不是很满意的是，我很需要别人的认同。太需要了。会很介意别人的想法。我也觉得很要不得，很像是活在别人的世界，我会尽量改吧。
哦！还有！不准再那么幼稚了！
希望在十年后，我还会很自豪地说我还是那么的喜欢那时候的自己！^^
Friday, November 25, 2011
星期五晚上
有点蠢，明明明天就有考试，可是还是突然间的想写些东西。
最近过得很不错下，可是，我发现和以前的生活方式不一样了，我不再吃早餐，不到两点钟不会想要睡觉，没喝那么多水了，一回到房间不是躺下睡觉，而是开电脑上网。
开始忙了。之前还很串天天说闷，没事情做。接下来的日子事情都排着队接踵而来，累了。
可是忙，也要忙得开心，忙得有意义。
怎么今天想到的都是废话？也不知道该写些什么了……
祝我明天考试顺顺利利吧。^^
Thursday, October 13, 2011
One of the Thursday Nights
Io sto male.
I used to be moody these days. Dont try to ask me why, i myself hunger for the answer.
I got one inside my head, girl sick? I hope this is the correct answer, i know i will get cured after some time, at least.
Recently, i have learnt that people do have dreams. However, reality and dreams do not meet somehow. Erm, try to make this matter looks easier, change another word instead of dream, lets use the word thought. You might have the idea to do your work, but by the time you do it, the result comes out later doesn't look like what you have expected. It just can, just can differ so much sometimes. Doubt about it how? and why is it so? Do you get the answer?
The typical ones i guess must be:"you dont have the heart when u doing it." I ban this, i did put heart. "Okay, you are just rushing, dont you ever heard slowly and steady?" Yes, i heard, but no, i dont. I had spared so much time on it. "You dont know the correct way, you dont have nice skill." Okay, you might be right. But this is sad.
Did i mention i bought a cactus from Cameron last few weeks? It looked so strong and charm, yes, dont doubt it, it was CHARM. But look at it now, it is dry, half-withered and dull. Ohh! It looks like me! I mean, my feeling! Tutto.
There is a book sale in Serdang. I wish i could go there. It is just too excited to see so many books and they are all selling at cheap prise. But it is too far. Lets forget it. I was not a bookworm or everyday-holding-book kind of people, but i like stories, when they are expressing in words they will look so beautiful and can be more attractive then watching movies sometimes. You know, when you imagine, things will get prettier and more wonderful then how they are when you really can see them.
Picture says thousands words? Words can draw more amazing pictures, sometimes. =)
I used to be moody these days. Dont try to ask me why, i myself hunger for the answer.
I got one inside my head, girl sick? I hope this is the correct answer, i know i will get cured after some time, at least.
Recently, i have learnt that people do have dreams. However, reality and dreams do not meet somehow. Erm, try to make this matter looks easier, change another word instead of dream, lets use the word thought. You might have the idea to do your work, but by the time you do it, the result comes out later doesn't look like what you have expected. It just can, just can differ so much sometimes. Doubt about it how? and why is it so? Do you get the answer?
The typical ones i guess must be:"you dont have the heart when u doing it." I ban this, i did put heart. "Okay, you are just rushing, dont you ever heard slowly and steady?" Yes, i heard, but no, i dont. I had spared so much time on it. "You dont know the correct way, you dont have nice skill." Okay, you might be right. But this is sad.
Did i mention i bought a cactus from Cameron last few weeks? It looked so strong and charm, yes, dont doubt it, it was CHARM. But look at it now, it is dry, half-withered and dull. Ohh! It looks like me! I mean, my feeling! Tutto.
There is a book sale in Serdang. I wish i could go there. It is just too excited to see so many books and they are all selling at cheap prise. But it is too far. Lets forget it. I was not a bookworm or everyday-holding-book kind of people, but i like stories, when they are expressing in words they will look so beautiful and can be more attractive then watching movies sometimes. You know, when you imagine, things will get prettier and more wonderful then how they are when you really can see them.
Picture says thousands words? Words can draw more amazing pictures, sometimes. =)
Tuesday, September 27, 2011
no tiltle
Okay, when you can see there is update in my blog, no other reasons, yes! IT IS BORING! *roar*
What else can you do when you have *NOTHING to do at all? Besides keep scrolling up and down on your facebook page, anything else meaningful you can do? Suggest me please!
Well, see my asterisk? my "nothing" here doesn't really mean it. In fact, i have books to read, tutorial questions to complete, notes to study. But those do not count as "something" to do. Because i DO NOT like them. Blow me? I was trying not to use "hate" this word by the way.
I am taking Italiano this semester. It was just an accident, but it is now however a fact. Enjoyed it for the first few classes, start feel a little bit lost. What i can say is, language is wonderful. Italiano has too many rules and tenses to follow. Will be harder when going deeper. Bless me.
Had moved to smaller room. A very small room indeed. No more sleeping on the bed-on-the-floor. Can see greenery grass when looking outside from the window. This is how i find this room lovely. =)
When you get to know someone more thoroughly, you will find yourself not so like about him/her. Is this a fact or just my prejudice?
If an acquaintance telling you he scores 100 in his test, will you clap your hand over your mouth and shout:"wow!brilliant!" or whisper to yourself:"走开啦，又关我事！" the first one or the latter? Or both at the same time?
What else can you do when you have *NOTHING to do at all? Besides keep scrolling up and down on your facebook page, anything else meaningful you can do? Suggest me please!
Well, see my asterisk? my "nothing" here doesn't really mean it. In fact, i have books to read, tutorial questions to complete, notes to study. But those do not count as "something" to do. Because i DO NOT like them. Blow me? I was trying not to use "hate" this word by the way.
I am taking Italiano this semester. It was just an accident, but it is now however a fact. Enjoyed it for the first few classes, start feel a little bit lost. What i can say is, language is wonderful. Italiano has too many rules and tenses to follow. Will be harder when going deeper. Bless me.
Had moved to smaller room. A very small room indeed. No more sleeping on the bed-on-the-floor. Can see greenery grass when looking outside from the window. This is how i find this room lovely. =)
When you get to know someone more thoroughly, you will find yourself not so like about him/her. Is this a fact or just my prejudice?
If an acquaintance telling you he scores 100 in his test, will you clap your hand over your mouth and shout:"wow!brilliant!" or whisper to yourself:"走开啦，又关我事！" the first one or the latter? Or both at the same time?
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